I'm at the hospital currently . I'm sure most of you have already know why right ? Yeah , a very bad accident happened to us when we were cycling at Bukit Cahaya . I'm not in the mood to rewrite everything again here as i don't want to see anymore tears flowing down my cheeks. I cried too much yesterday . From morning until midnight. I just couldn't stop imagining everything. Everything happened too quickly in just a blink of an eye. It's a really scary experience that you would not want to experience it yourself. I woke up myself at 2am last night, i thought about everything again, & i cried. I guess my mum heard me crying or saw me instead idk . I just couldn't control myself. Whenever i flashback-ed the incident, it was really terrible. I witnessed, with both of my eyes, on how my mum fell down . I just couldn't believe anything . The feeling was just like when you saw the person whom you loved so much was involved in accident. They are basically the same. Maybe you couldn't understand how sad and how depressed i feel right now because this never happened on you before. I hope that the person who is lying down on the bed now is me . I hope i'm the one who needs to undergo an operation. I hope that the one who needs to take lots of medicines & injection is me. I couldn't let my mum suffered everything. Its too much for her. She had done so much for us . She never complains while raising us from a baby until now. She gave her best to us , her 3 kids. Now , finally i realised that being a mum isn't easy. Mum , I'm truly sorry that i often raise my voice to you. I'm really sorry that i always rejected to help you with the chores. I'm really sorry if i've ever slammed the door in front of you. Yes, i did all that before. There're more. What happened yesterday had totally gave me a lesson. I promise that i'll listen to you everyday , i'll help you everyday & i'll love you always . You're the best mum ever.

Ohh shit . There goes the tears again.  I need to stay strong as my mum needs my help the most now. I couldn't let her see me tearing up again in front of her . I cried in front of her ytd , & she told me not to cry because she'll be more upset if she sees me crying. I need to learn to be strong like how JYJ did when they made a hard decision to leave the company. Yeah, i shall learn that from them . Okay, i need to end my post here . My tears just couldn't stop flowing down my cheeks. I couldn't continue anymore. it's really hard. I guess i need some time to recover. bye.

My current look .